Tuesday, February 19, 2008

Zechariah 12-14

Zec 12:1The burden of the word of the LORD
for Israel, saith the LORD, which
stretcheth forth the heavens, and
layeth the foundation of the earth,
and formeth the spirit of man within him.

burden=
Lexicon Results for massa' (Strong's H4853)
Hebrew for H4853
משא

Transliteration

massa'

Pronunciation

mas·sä' (Key)

Part of Speech

masculine noun
proper masculine noun

Root Word (Etymology)

from H5375

TWOT Reference

Outline of Biblical Usage

n m

1) load, bearing, tribute, burden, lifting

a) load, burden

b) lifting, uplifting, that to which the soul lifts itself up

c) bearing, carrying

d) tribute, that which is carried or brought or borne

2) utterance, oracle, burden

H4853

I always get jazzed over certain words
when I go indepth and decipher them.
Tonight 'massa' jumped out at me.

Burden is used conventionally to imply
workload, but not as drudgery or a
slavery sense. It is used to convey essential
work, like that of a priest and prophet,
as well as physical or intellectual and
emotional labor. It is implied duty and
responsibility as well as privilege and
purpose. In context with God's Word,
it is literally his utterance, like the
first utterance, from which our Universe,
our World and our own existences
emerged and are connected with.
Zechariah deliberately implies this
original meaning in "massa" as
divine purposeful utterance, more than our
concept of "burden" as in trouble,
or workload.

So when Zechariah states the "burden
of the word of the Lord" it is a curious
and unusual statement because usually
burden is associated with a specific
office. By using this phrase, he is
establishing its incontrovertible design.
This will be done because it is His Will,
it is His purpose and Plan for the ages.

The burden

[04853] massa
of the word

[01697] dabar
of the LORD

[03068] Y@hovah
for Israel,

[03478] Yisra'el
saith
[05002] n@'um

the LORD,

[03068] Y@hovah
which stretcheth

[05186] natah

forth the heavens,

[08064] shamayim
and layeth the foundation

[03245] yacad

of the earth,

[0776] erets
and formeth

[03335] yatsar

the spirit

[07307] ruwach
of man

[0120] adam
within
[07130] qereb
him.


I find it fascinating to study this opening
paragraph because it not only establishes
God's authorized WORD, but reminds the
reader of His omnipotence and authority.

We may recoil at the images of destruction
within Zechariah 12-14, but, it contains the
paradox of hope within it's terrifying and
dreadful images of destruction.

From the first paragraph, it reiterates
the genesis of order: (In the beginning
was the WORD and the WORD was with
God and the WORD was God)...

This is the burden of the word for Israel,
it's purpose and plan, which was stated
from the first book to the final book of
Revelation, no matter what the order
of our canon... the order is in the universe
and we are mystically connected to these
words, and once connected, we are
empowered by their power and truth.

It is God who formed the heavens and
laid the foundation of Earth, and it is
God who created man in his image for
His glory, lest we forget.

We're living in an age which is seeking
to eliminate all discussion about the
prime mover of Creation. The powers
that be act like evolution is scientifically
irrufutable and the allegory of Creation
from God's breath is indefensible as
nonsense. We who know God know they
are blind and that professing to be wise
they are fools because there is not and
has never been any proof of evolution
apart from God's design.

For some reason, this omnipotence of
Almighty God has always bothered those
who are carnal, and comforted those who
are spiritual. Christ phrased it accordingly,
for he said that those of spiritual darkness
cannot bear the light, and to remind the
reader of God's authority, Zechariah
sums up all with God's signature. He is.
He created the heavens, the Earth and
all who exist. It is his plan to make Zion
a stumblingblock for all nations to
accomplish HIS Plan, which was his
plan from the beginning of time.

It is God who gave man the spirit
(breath) of life. It is his to remove.
He is the life. It is HIS breath.
The Holy Spirit is the breath of life,
literally.

This opening paragraph gives hope
to those who rejoice in God's promise
to provide us with eternal life, but,
this entire chapter will enrage the
non-believer for it signifies the end
of man's sovereignty and abuse of
this planet. As kings, men have subjugated
and slaughtered all life-forms, bringing
everything, even the climate under
his submission, destroying everything
in his paths...

In Rev.9, the devil is given the code name
as Abadden, or the Destroyer, yet that
is the way mankind has behaved and
how men in their greed and lust have
destroyed women, animals, the Earth,
air, water, and all living creatures
when he was told to be a good husbandman
and keeper of the Earth. Instead, there's
a few men who control billions and
the suffering of the masses is
incomprehensible. The suffering of
animals is even louder to the compassionate
ears of God.

HE WILL AVENGE!

We were made in God's image, not to
treat the smaller creatures with treachory
and cruelty. We were not made for celebrity
prostitutes like Paris Hilton and Lindsay
Lohan to lead a generation of young girls
astray and into Hell and destruction,
to be subjugated and then cast off.
I can just see both Lohan and Hilton
in 10 years as they're treated like jokes,
like Pam Anderson at 40....

They at least have money and can laugh it
off. What about the generation of young
whores they are seducing? They are truly
and literally demonic. Look at the other
role models saturating the culture and
undermining the souls and minds of
this last generation. They are not merely
godless, but, truly truly soulless, catering
to a world conspiracy machine which
is constructed to make men disposable,
even more than they already are...

Women are already disposable by my age.
I laugh about it now, because I don't care
and know that I have a better hope than
this body and face, but, what about those
poor wretches who find themselves losing
the battle of time. The women who go into
debt to build pornographic bodies and faces
at 45... they are chasing demons and there
is no hope for them.

In God, there is eternal life. In Christ's
kingdom, there is a fountain of life that
proceeds from his throne, LITERALLY!
The water of life will be a real waterway,
and the Dead Sea will be healed, and the
TREE OF LIFE will be planted on each
side of the river. Each year, delegates
from each nation on Earth will come up
to Jerusalem to pay spiritual homage and
will receive leaves of the tree to heal their
people.

Even neater, every month, the tree produces
different fruit. This is what we should be
developing in ourselves, this spiritual
connection to God and His kingdom, not
prostitution, pornography and greed.
Yet, the latter is what the world seems
to honor the most, and they do it
blatantly!

That's why the rest of the prophecy is
immutable and was pronounced hundreds
of years before Christ, and continues to
resonate stronger each year, especially for
us, because it can apply to our own sociopolitical
world as it really is today, unlike it was in
the Middle Ages or even 100 years ago!

It is coming, and we need to now turn away
from the darkness of man's creed to turn on
God's word. It's purpose is to give us life.

One of my favorite biblical Hebrew words
and studies has always been "Ruwach"
the word synonymous with life, breath
and spirit.

Hebrew for H7307
רוח

Transliteration

ruwach

Pronunciation

rü'·akh (Key)

Part of Speech

feminine noun

Root Word (Etymology)

from H7306

TWOT Reference

Outline of Biblical Usage

1) wind, breath, mind, spirit

a) breath

b) wind

1) of heaven

2) quarter (of wind), side

3) breath of air

4) air, gas

5) vain, empty thing

c) spirit (as that which breathes quickly in animation or agitation)

1) spirit, animation, vivacity, vigour

2) courage

3) temper, anger

4) impatience, patience

5) spirit, disposition (as troubled, bitter, discontented)

6) disposition (of various kinds), unaccountable or uncontrollable impulse

7) prophetic spirit

d) spirit (of the living, breathing being in man and animals)

1) as gift, preserved by God, God's spirit, departing at death, disembodied being

e) spirit (as seat of emotion)

1) desire

2) sorrow, trouble

f) spirit

1) as seat or organ of mental acts

2) rarely of the will

3) as seat especially of moral character

g) Spirit of God, the third person of the triune God, the Holy Spirit, coequal, coeternal with the Father and the Son

1) as inspiring ecstatic state of prophecy

2) as impelling prophet to utter instruction or warning

3) imparting warlike energy and executive and administrative power

4) as endowing men with various gifts

5) as energy of life

6) as manifest in the Shekinah glory

7) never referred to as a depersonalised force

Authorized Version (KJV) Translation Count — Total: 378
H7307


AV — Spirit or spirit 232, wind 92, breath 27, side 6, mind 5, blast 4, vain 2, air 1, anger 1, cool 1, courage 1, misc 6

It is first used in Gen.1:2

Gen 1:2 And the earth was without form , and void ;
and darkness [was] upon the face of the deep.
And the Spirit ruwach of God Elohim moved upon
the face of the waters.

From the beginning, it was the breath/Spirit/Life
of God (Elohim) which stirred existence. This is
the message in the first paragraph of Zech 12
reiterated. It is God's utterance of the WORD
and the world into being, HIS SPIRIT and
breath which created man and all that is.
It is all HIM.

I always appreciate the first references to
God as in the plural, Elohim, the "im"
is the Hebrew suffix for multiples. When
God makes man, he makes him like
"THEM" or "US" not singular. This
establishes the Godhead from the first
words and lays the foundation for
our PLAN of salvation in Christ for
He is the physical manifestation of
God, the Father, and Holy Spirit,
RUWACH.

It is through Christ which we are delivered
into life eternal. It is through Israel that
God accomplishes his plan of redemption
and tests the Earth.

His day is coming. The judgment is dreadful
and terrifying. Even now with all our deep
yearning for Him and to see Him return,
there is a natural dread of things like are
described to occur to those who oppose
Israel, because it truly sounds like a nuclear
war with everything disintegrating in a
flash of fire and in Revelation, it's even
more vivid with the survivors moaning
about envying the dead....

We have so much to rejoice in when we accept
the Lord's gracious gift of salvation in Christ,
but, there is always two sides to each aspect
of prophetic verse. If we feel pity towards
those who are doomed to suffer or perish in such
a horrendous manner, how much deeper is
God's distress, for he desired for all men to
grab hold of Christ's hem of salvation to
escape the wrath to come. It is our choice
but that choice is becoming harder to
obtain with the world being indoctrinated
against all that is holy, true, good and
geared towards pleasing and worshipping
God. Today, it is more fashionable to
be an antichrist and proud of it. Girls
gone wild is the standard for young girls,
so what hope is there for them? Young men
are saturated with porn and goals of
pursuing wealth, and disposable women.
What wealthy man has his original
wife, or come to think of it, what wealthy
man over 40 has a woman closer to his
age than the age of his young daughters?

This is the last generation of mankind, or
the last days, by virtue of countries racing
to perfect the weapons of destruction,
and never before in history has there
been as many slaves, particularly sex
slaves in young women and children.
Does God not care when all of these
events, not to mention the slaughter
of animals and worshipping of money
over human lives, obliterates all that
is decent and good?

This is truly an evil world. The powers
behind the wheels of this world are
diabolically evil and they must and
will be stopped.

This is why Zechariah, while hard to
read is also exultant and victorious.
Evil men and satan will not prevail.
God will return and there will be
Paradise restored to all who accept
his plan of redemption.

All of us are sinners and need to come
to his mercy seat and repent, and in his
eyes, none of us by our own goodness
can redeem ourselves. It is only through
Christ that we are promised eternal
life. There is no other future.






2 a.m. - another sleepless night....
I've been drinking green tea all day...

what do I expect?

I've been sublimating pain....

Instead of reaching for a pill, I take myself
to another place. Lately, I can visualize New Zion
coming at dizzying speeds, not zipping horizontally
from some far off place past the Dog Star, but, coming
straight down through bazillions of layers of overlapping
time/space coordinates. It is spectacular to consider,
and when I try to focus, or understand this, I find
it is more oppressive to behold than to consider
the spectacle of distant galaxies being billions of
light years away.

Why does God, who is Master of the Universe,
need any physical form or the vehicle promised
to present Himself to one spec of His infinite
creation? That's what confounds the atheists
and they will truly go insane when they see it.
It is all illogical, yet, the greatest minds in human
history, even Einstein, who have studied the
Prophets and prophecies, and considered the
impact of this one man, Jesus Christ, cannot
dismiss his impact or how the prophecies are
coming true.

Today, when I read how Iran calls for Israel to
be nuked, chills travel down my spine and the
hairs on my arm stand up. I am unable to turn
away from the prophecies of Zechariah 12->
especially reading about how the nation of Israel,
who rejected the Messiah, will weep for the
one who was "wounded in the 'house of my
friends," and how all nations who fight against
Israel will suffer this fate.

Zec 12:1 The burden of the word of the LORD
for Israel, saith the LORD, which
stretcheth forth the heavens, and
layeth the foundation of the earth,
and formeth the spirit of man within him
.
Zec 12:2 Behold, I will make Jerusalem a cup of
trembling unto all the people round about,
when they shall be in the siege both against
Judah [and] against Jerusalem.

Zec 12:3 And in that day will I make Jerusalem
a burdensome stone for all people: all
that burden themselves with it shall be
cut in pieces, though all the people of
the earth be gathered together against it.

Zec 12:4 In that day, saith the LORD, I will smite
every horse with astonishment, and his
rider with madness: and I will open mine
eyes upon the house of Judah, and will
smite every horse of the people with blindness.

Zec 12:5 And the governors of Judah shall say
in their heart, The inhabitants of Jerusalem
[shall be] my strength in the LORD of hosts
their God.

Zec 12:6 In that day will I make the governors
of Judah like an hearth of fire among the
wood, and like a torch of fire in a sheaf;
and they shall devour all the people round
about, on the right hand and on the left:
and Jerusalem shall be inhabited again
in her own place, [even] in Jerusalem.

Zec 12:7 The LORD also shall save the tents of Judah
first, that the glory of the house of David and
the glory of the inhabitants of Jerusalem do
not magnify [themselves] against Judah.

Zec 12:8 In that day shall the LORD defend the
inhabitants of Jerusalem; and he that is
feeble among them at that day shall be as
David; and the house of David [shall be]
as God, as the angel of the LORD before them.

Zec 12:9 And it shall come to pass in that day, [that]
I will seek to destroy all the nations that
come against Jerusalem.

Zec 12:10 And I will pour upon the house of David,
and upon the inhabitants of Jerusalem,
the spirit of grace and of supplications:
and they shall look upon me whom they
have pierced, and they shall mourn for
him, as one mourneth for [his] only [son],
and shall be in bitterness for him, as one
that is in bitterness for [his] firstborn.

Zec 12:11 In that day shall there be a great mourning
in Jerusalem, as the mourning of Hadadrimmon
in the valley of Megiddon.

Zec 12:12 And the land shall mourn, every family apart;
the family of the house of David apart, and
their wives apart; the family of the house of
Nathan apart, and their wives apart;

Zec 12:13 The family of the house of Levi apart, and their
wives apart; the family of Shimei apart, and their
wives apart;

Zec 12:14 All the families that remain, every family apart,
and their wives apart.
=================================
There's so much prophecy in this chapter that it makes
my heart beat fast! It even captures the exact circumstance
of sociopolitical Israel, and how the Jews there are not
to exalt themselves over the Jews of Christ. They will
see with their eyes and mourn, and be healed, but,
they will enter in after the nations, not before.

Interestingly, the verse about the family of Nathan apart
is spectacular prophecy about Mary's lineage vs. the lineage
of David's Solomon, for he lost the kingdom. The right of
genetic succession went to Nathan and then to Mary who
gave birth to Christ from the Holy Ghost. There's no other
way to interpret this line.

It is so SPOT ON for our generation that it brings
tears to my eyes. Every year it gets closer, and my
hope gets higher. I feel giddy with elation thinking
about how every generation wanted to witness what
we may be blessed to see: The Coming of the LORD
of Hosts!

_______________________

The last chapter is the most dynamic and staight
forward blast of prophecy which we, can relate
to more than any other generation before us.

There has never been a weapon formed that hasn't
been used to kill others. This final prophecy is
very descriptive of nuclear obliteration. Ironically,
it doesn't mean that man will detonate the bombs.
It may mean that one of the bowls of wrath, behind
that Seventh Seal, is the equivalent to our own
plans for destroying eachother:


Zec 14:1 Behold, the day of the LORD cometh, and
thy spoil shall be divided in the midst of thee.

Zec 14:2 For I will gather all nations against Jerusalem
to battle; and the city shall be taken, and the
houses rifled, and the women ravished; and half
of the city shall go forth into captivity, and the
residue of the people shall not be cut off from the city.

Zec 14:3 Then shall the LORD go forth, and fight against
those nations, as when he fought in the day of battle.

Zec 14:4 And his feet shall stand in that day upon the
mount of Olives, which [is] before Jerusalem
on the east, and the mount of Olives shall
cleave in the midst thereof toward the east
and toward the west, [and there shall be]
a very great valley; and half of the mountain
shall remove toward the north, and half of
it toward the south.

Zec 14:5 And ye shall flee [to] the valley of the
mountains; for the valley of the mountains
shall reach unto Azal: yea, ye shall flee,
like as ye fled from before the earthquake
in the days of Uzziah king of Judah: and
the LORD my God shall come, [and] all
the saints with thee.

Zec 14:6 And it shall come to pass in that day,
[that] the light shall not be clear, [nor] dark:

Zec 14:7 But it shall be one day which shall be known
to the LORD, not day, nor night: but it shall
come to pass, [that] at evening time it shall
be light.

Zec 14:8 And it shall be in that day, [that] living
waters shall go out from Jerusalem; half
of them toward the former sea, and half
of them toward the hinder sea: in summer
and in winter shall it be.

Zec 14:9 And the LORD shall be king over all
the earth: in that day shall there be
one LORD, and his name one.

Zec 14:10 All the land shall be turned as a plain
from Geba to Rimmon south of Jerusalem:
and it shall be lifted up, and inhabited in her
place, from Benjamin's gate unto the place
of the first gate, unto the corner gate, and
[from] the tower of Hananeel unto the king's
winepresses.

Zec 14:11 And [men] shall dwell in it, and there shall
be no more utter destruction; but Jerusalem
shall be safely inhabited.

Zec 14:12 And this shall be the plague wherewith
the LORD will smite all the people that
have fought against Jerusalem; Their
flesh shall consume away while they
stand upon their feet, and their eyes shall
consume away in their holes, and their
tongue shall consume away in their mouth.

Zec 14:13 And it shall come to pass in that day, [that]
a great tumult from the LORD shall be among
them; and they shall lay hold every one on the
hand of his neighbour, and his hand shall rise
up against the hand of his neighbour.

Zec 14:14 And Judah also shall fight at Jerusalem;
and the wealth of all the heathen round
about shall be gathered together, gold,
and silver, and apparel, in great abundance.

Zec 14:15 And so shall be the plague of the horse, of the
mule, of the camel, and of the ass, and of all
the beasts that shall be in these tents, as this
plague.

Zec 14:16 And it shall come to pass, [that] every one
that is left of all the nations which came
against Jerusalem shall even go up from
year to year to worship the King, the LORD
of hosts, and to keep the feast of tabernacles.

Zec 14:17 And it shall be, [that] whoso will not come
up of [all] the families of the earth unto
Jerusalem to worship the King, the LORD
of hosts, even upon them shall be no rain.

Zec 14:18 And if the family of Egypt go not up, and
come not, that [have] no [rain]; there shall
be the plague, wherewith the LORD will
smite the heathen that come not up to keep
the feast of tabernacles.

Zec 14:19 This shall be the punishment of Egypt,
and the punishment of all nations that
come not up to keep the feast of tabernacles.

Zec 14:20 In that day shall there be upon the bells
of the horses, HOLINESS UNTO THE LORD;
and the pots in the LORD'S house shall be
like the bowls before the altar.

Zec 14:21 Yea, every pot in Jerusalem and in Judah
shall be holiness unto the LORD of hosts:
and all they that sacrifice shall come and
take of them, and seethe therein: and in
that day there shall be no more the Canaanite
in the house of the LORD of hosts.

Sunday, February 17, 2008

other life news and some movie reviews

Aside from my spiritual quest, I've been trying to
get my life back to where I'm out every day and active.
I know it sounds like I'm a lazy slug, and maybe I am,
but, I feel it's a miracle I'm able to get out regularly
lately at all, considering how sick I had been!

I made up my mind to diet, fast, and get
the weight off... it was just a matter of time
before it was done. I'm halfway there already
and I hardly notice the discomfort, even on
days when I'm fasting with mostly liquids.

I try to keep my average weekly calories at
1000-1200 a day, increasing it during
the weekend to 2400 cals to keep my metabolism
happy. But, the exercise component has not
been easy since my spine is soooooo messed up.

By the late Spring, I'll be skinny and
I need to be skinny for my back. I can only
do sub-optimal cardio, so the only chance
I have for fitness is the pool. We have
something like 10 pools in our condo, with
one massive olympic one in the main complex.
Some days there is no one there since most
everyone uses their own building's pool to splash
and socialize. I also miss the gorgeous beaches
within 15 miles of where I live. It's insane
since I love the ocean so much yet haven't
been down to the beach for like 3 years since
my injuries accelerated my decline in
everything.

I'm going back to school for Jewelry design
and technology. Coming from a healthcare
background it's quite a turnaround and cut
in pay but it's the only thing that I can
visualize doing that won't further deteriorate
my spine. Healthcare is out for good now.
Life goes on. It's a new cycle of life for
me, whether or not it's only for the next
3 or 4 years before the Cube returns or not...
I'll be ready to face my golden years if
we're still here 25 years from now...

I run from any relationships for now. I'm not
going to inflict my broken down body on
anyone, and I need to devote all my energy
to getting whole again and making spiritual
strides. It's easier for me to make this
happen without needing to cater to another
person. I do get lonely though. I hit it off
with my opthamologist! He's an orthodox Jew
however, but, we clicked anyway. My eye pressure
was a high 22 and I asked him for a script for
marijuana. He was totally sympathetic but
reminded me we don't live in California where
he could do that. From there, we started
discussing all kinds of things. I can tell
when someone likes me, and he just lit up.
He told me about his wife dying and stuff
he was into. He had a Hebrew Bible on his
desk which looked loved and used. It endeared
him to me.

It's funny how 20 years ago the orthodox Jews
and we were enemies, but, now they are also
looking up to heaven for the Messiah. It's
a miraculous coming together of people, and
ironic, considering how 20 years ago I was
informed I lost my aliyah privilege and today
Messianic Jews and evangelical Christians are
the biggest supporters of Jerusalem. There's
something going on there for sure. Much of
the orthodox communities accept us before the
dead secular denominations of reformed and
conservative Judaism. Still, I didn't tell
the doc I was a Christian, so, I didn't
encourage him beyond thanking him for some
literature he gave me on nutrition. I felt
a twinge of longing though, not for a lover,
but for another soul mate of sorts. I still
miss John.


Since it's never been difficult for me to meet and
make friends, I am not concerned about meeting
someone in the future, if an when it would
be okay for me to share my life again. Why
screw up someone else's life when life is
hard enough without someone like me with my
complex crap?

When I go back to school, I'm sure I'll make
more contacts and friends than I have now.
A close girlfriend would be cool, too.
For now, it's not such a bad thing that
Jesus is my best friend. I really don't want
to ever marry again, so, I'm generally
content. I just hate being alone.

Other than school, dieting, making jewelry,
art, and making new dreams happen, my only other
news is that I may go to Jerusalem next September. I
mentioned to dad how I googled an old friend
of mine, and saw how he now was a minister
and he's participating at a super cool sounding
conference in Jerusalem during the
High Holiday season and dad thinks I should
get in touch with him and see if I can
go with his group. I think he's performing
with the Philharmonic there so that would
be cool, too. Maybe Frank can go. I need to
call him. If you check my blog Frank, call
me since I'm so bad at calling and never
know when to call...

So I saw "Sweeny Todd" with Johnny Depp and
Helena Bonham Carter and was appalled. I
don't understand how Stephen Sondheim gave
the green light to produce such a grim
piece of crap. The producer's wife, Bonham
Carter, was the worst possible choice for
Mrs. Lovett. Her voice was beyond pitiful.
It was so thin and joyless. Anyone familliar
with Angela Lansbury's Tony performance
couldn't watch the travesty without cringing.
This actress had no humor, or the dark grace
of black wit intended for this role. Johnny
Depp has only been in bad roles when acting
in Tim Burton abominations. Why Burton wouldn't
use Patti Lapone and George Hearn, or at least
get real singers, is sickening. For me, it
epitomizes the decline of mass entertainment
and ego of these ridiculous moviemakers these
days. He cut the script to shreds and changed
key elements. The actor and singer for Antony
was pitiful and he picked a fatuous 12 year
old for Joanna. At least check to see if
Charlotte Church would be available before
casting some unknown with a thin voice for
that role. Then again, with the stars being
non-singers, why bother?

Why am I so fussy? Because it was a MUSICAL
and Operetta which I considered one of the
best of the 20th Century. It was beyond
horrible. Madonna would have made a better
MRs. Lovett. In fact, I think she would
have worked it ala Angela Lansbury. Helena
Bonham Carter is possibly the worst actress
in London and anywhere. If these two mediocre
acting performances win best actor and actress
at the Academy Awards, it will validate what
a joke these people and these awards and
all modern film has become.

I cannot believe or understand how it has
gotten good reviews. It was nothing short
of grim and lousy beyond belief. Tim Burton
is ridiculous. To think these films use
budgets the size of what it takes to feed
nations of African children and the egos
of these fools leads them to believe the
unwashed masses won't notice or don't
deserve anything better... It's really the
end of our civilization, but, I won't rant
about that again.

I am just disappointed and disgusted from
one of my favorite shows being destroyed.
I am so disappointed in Stephen Sondheim,
someone I have really idolized all my life.
Why would he inflict this trash on his
fans?

I also so "I Am Legend." I like Will Smith
and he was good. For a Sci-Fi, it was cool,
while predictable and silly at times. At
least it was entertaining and well done.

I've been trying to catch more oscar films
just to catch up with the world, but, I can
only handle a few at a time. I used to love
movies, but, it seems like there's no art
to film anymore, or else, I'm just moving
away from those things. I can't find too
much television to watch other than reality
shows, or pseudo-reality, like Project Runway
and American Idol.

Idol this year is lame for me. It's so predictable.
Simon is so phony by being nice. I have long
tired of Paula's sound. I'm so sick of these
amateurish Holiday Inn lounge singers with their
vibrattos and vocal acrobatic runs which
supplants style and substance. What do I expect?
I used to love Idol. I guess the Irish singer
is good, and the Plus sized model is awesome.
Otherwise, I am already annoyed by the 16 year
old bratty kids and the predictable blonde
nanny who is giving it one last chance. Give
me a break. B O R I N G. Is it going to be
another season where the winner is a loser
like that old grey-haired "291/2 year old"
(I forget his name... he sucked.)

Why do I bother caring since it's so phony?
LOL. Why do I care? I am just another gullible
sheep.

My favorite for Project Runway this year is
Chris but the cockatiel will no doubt win.
I don't think he's all that but they do
with a bag of chips, so, he's pretty much
going to win it. It's a disappointing
season thinking that this will be the
outcome, only because the cockatiel is such
a brat. It's always disappointing when
shitty people win.

Oh, other than this drivel, we're redoing
the condo so it's been fun picking out new
colors and themes. I'm getting rid of all
my Miami deco furniture, well, most of it,
and going dead minimalistic, making one side
of the room into a studio for my work. I have
it designed. I may paint the room a dark blue,
too. I want less clutter and for the white
furniture remaining to pop. We'll see.

Boring I know. That's me. That
is about it for now. I thought I'd
immortalize this for some reason like
it matters! But, that's what blogs are
for.

The mystery of faith

I abandoned blogging the SOS study because it was
too hard to adequately capture the layers of mysticism.
I'm not skillful or able to competently express the
full range of etiological nuances of language, and the
utter majesty of the transparent layers of meaning
which overlap and create a 4 dimensional matrix of
prophecy.

I can see why Solomon is used in the counterfeit
mystery religion and why his temple became the
template of the deceitful. As the son of David, he
was the promised one in the flesh, but not of the
eternal promise. Christ fulfilled that role. In our
natural state, what we refer to as carnal nature, we
can only face the attraction to those things which
are familiar to us of this world, here and now, and
based on what was familiar to our ancestors which
became the building blocks of our cultural society.

What do we do when we long to break away from
this world's standards, morals, and limited range
of perception to embrace the 4th dimensional
mysticism of the Bible and its original mystical
language? It's all there, embedded in the first
words of faith, yet intellectual development doesn't
transport us to that place, only faith and God's
grace can transform our minds into the seedlings
of the beings we are promised to be in His presence.

I long for him with every fiber of my being, never
more than when I am blessed with the strange
romantic phenomenon of hearing his music through
the words of the apostate king and blessed son of
David, Solomon. How could he have been both so
blessed of God and so accursed and weak? He was
the wisest man of all, yet the most foolish and
fatuous failure of any. In the flesh, we cannot and
do not please our God for he is a spirit which
encompasses everything. He is the theory and
truth of everything. He is. And we are the work
of his hands, not the other way around. Solomon
built his temple, and the temple of his adversary
on Earth. Solomon saw Christ's face yet relied on the
unseen faces of inferior spiritual beings to guide
him. Why? Because he was human first, and we
are all grievously handicapped and subjected to
error through our limited 2 dimensional spiritual
boundaries, beyond the gates of our natural
understanding. Like the mighty cherubim who
guard the way to Eden with flaming swords of
fire, we are forbidden from trespassing unless
we are bidden and obey the commandments.
Even then, it is by his invitation, not our own
misadventures. However, he said, "Seek and
ye shall find... ask and it shall be given."
When we truly desire knowledge and understanding,
like Solomon once did, we will be led through
these gates. We just need to remember that
through our own baby blues, we are still
blind, and not rely on our own interpretations
if we can help it. All of us can be cults or fall
into those pits. If Solomon did, what warning
does that impart to us of far less noble origin?

It is only through God's extraordinary grace which
allows any of us to escape our fate of doom and
destruction. When the bombs fall, and the suffering
begins, only then will those who deny God's power
acknowledge him, not to praise him in fear and awe,
but, to curse and blame him for our suffering. The
most challenging obstacle to faith is the loss of a
child and loved ones. Those with faith will cling to
God's kingdom, and understand, but, those who
only cherish this realm will understandably despise
the one who dares to claim control of what is his.

It's exactly like we've been squatting for thousands
of years, without consequence for destroying the land
and air, slaughtering the creatures, and finally for
destroying our own kind in genocide, slavery, sexual
subordination and greed. When the land owner
returns and rages, how dare he punish us... that's
what is coming and how people on Earth will receive
his city which is coming down from heaven, and which
will be seen from the Earth.

We're so indoctrinated by War of the Worlds, and science
fiction, that people will be easy to convince that the
intruder is the enemy. God is already the enemy to
more people than he is a refuge and savior.

We're so utterly lost, all of us, and in some ways,
Christians and Jews are the most lost because we
convince eachother that we are safe and secure
without heeding to his only mandatory commands.
We don't have to sprinkle the blood of rams, lambs
and red heifers upon the four horns of the altar before
the mercy seat of God because Christ himself was
offered up for our sins and his blood is our cleansing
ablution. Yet, when we are asked to put away things
of idolatry, we choose some things and reject the
biggest obstacles in our path like honoring Christ
on the sun-god's special solstice day. Christmas is
egregiously vain and antichristian in ceremonial
custom and spirit. It is forbidden, utterly anathema
to combine anything pagan with Christ's holy
legacy, yet we have invented sin to present as a
stumblingblock for each generation, passing it
on to our children as babes, calling it good.

That's why Song of Solomon transcends translation
for me, the same way understanding that changing
the days of the worship of YHWH and holy
convocation days are wrong. Some secret language
within the original plain words conveys plain
meaning, yet as logical as it is to me, it is impossible
for me to convince anyone, such as the state of the
world is.

All of our pastors are educated at world seminaries
which combine cultures in a mish-mash of tolerance
for other religions. Is that what Christ preached?
Didn't he overturn the tables in the temple and
repudiate the learned of his day? Didn't he call them
servants of the devil and vipers? He didn't call the
sinners by those terms, only their religious leaders.
They criticized his choice of apostles and disciple,
from Matthew, the tax collector, akin to a mobster
back then, to Mary, sister of Martha and Lazarus,
a scarlet woman redeemed by faith. He welcomed
the outcasts and rejected the religious orthodoxy
and their masters.

What hope is there for us when all of our pastors
are ordained by universities and institutions which
dictate tolerance for false light and errors in translation
and doctrine? Who are the voices crying out in the
wilderness to evacuate those dead places now, to
leave the pompous congregations whose buildings
are decked in splendor and pomp, like prostitutes
covered in painted faces to disguise their plainess
to prospective Johns. We are committing spiritual
adultery in them because they are teaching
us carnal ways, like the ways of Solomon, son of
David, not Jesus Christ, the Lord.

Because we are creatures of spiritual sloth, we are
easily led astray like sheep without any bonds to
our true master. We follow after every manner of
foolish doctrine because that's all we know from
the time we are children. People who rant against
Christmas are condemned and called names.
People who made fun of Elijah and Elisha were
comparable to those who cannot bear to leave
their comfort zone these days, and yet, it is
inexorably the fate of the church and most
Christians to miss the mark of God.

When Christ returns, will there be faith on Earth?
When he returns, will we rejoice to see Zion?
Will we also rant about the poisoned water if
we're here, or will we finally understand how
like Job, we are not made to be appeased by
God, but to please him, and if we are abominable,
and if we destroyed the planet slowly over the
past 100 years, our fate is our own legacy, not
God's. God desires no man to suffer or die.
That's why he put on flesh, then gave his
flesh and blood for the final covenant.

This secret ceremony is described and exalted
in Song of Solomon, yet even though his prophet,
even Solomon couldn't see him, only himself...

I'll continue this later. I've been experiencing the
most profound spiritual changes, and I don't
want to sound like I'm bragging or better than
any other wretch, because truly I am just dust
like each sinner. I resist crucifying my own flesh
so I depend on God to take me through this process.
I can only fast and pray. Even through that there
is pride and carnal desire because when I diet
I get more attractive. For some bizarre reason,
I still look so young, and while I take pride in
this, I'm not trying to brag... it just is what
it is. I have no lines or sagging anywhere. I look
no different than I did at 30. It's like my dad's hair.
He is almost 90 and he has not one streak of grey.
Women my age get botox and face-lifts but I
don't even do more than wash my face with soap
and I smoke on top of that. It's only by God's
grace that I have not been aging. It's a weird
but blessed gift, and I'm not looking a gift horse
in the mouth.

When people my dad's generation look at him
they shake their heads because no one his age
should look like that. Why doesn't he have any
grey hair? I tell him it's because he's descendant
of Levi, Moses (it was on his ancestral bar mitzvah
talas-his surname and levi)... Moses is depicted
with long white beard and hair, but, in his 80s
he began his sojourn with the Hebrews, and his
hair remained dark and his clothing and shoes
didn't wear out, unless I'm mistaken.

See how easy it is for the focus to return to me,
and away from God? How pretty I am, how young
and how my flesh is preserved... What hope is there
for me when even through self-inflicted piety,
ascetic discipline and desire for illumination, all
that i see in that glass darkly is a looking glass
image of myself? How do I escape this universe
of me to join him? How do I let him in to release
me from this prison of ego and pride?

I am not pretty in God's eyes, I am beautiful only
because I am seeking him. When my eyes admire
myself, I become invisible both to him and eternity.
My eternal soul is with God, but, this body will
turn to dust and ashes someday. I long to escape
the longing to preserve my flesh. I dread the wrinkles
and sagging flesh, even though I have somehow
not begun to age rapidly. I fear that I'll wake up
and overnight I'll be that proverbial old hag and
no man will ever want me. ... Yet, here's the biggest
conundrum. I don't want any mortal man anymore.
I long to escape all longing, if it's God's will. I long
to remain celibate and chaste until his kingdom
comes, and I still have high hopes it is in 2012.
(I promised my dad. He said he can make it
to 90, anyway and looks forward to seeing Jesus
Christ coming with his city of heaven with his own eyes!)

I love my dad so much. I love him for being a Jew
who respects my love for Christ, even though he's
reluctantly been dragged into this mishagos whirl.
He cannot fathom why he saw the event in heaven
his eyes witnessed, which I think was similar to
Ezekiel's vision of the cherubims. I think it's because
even though he's not an orthodox or even a religious
Jew, he is the last physical generation of Levite,
which makes him a last generation of priest of
the old dispensation. I guess we, who seek Christ
and try to abide in faith, are like the Melchizadec
order, which combines the tribal markers of
Judah and Levi. Come to think of it, John the
Baptist was a combination of those two tribe,
with his dad being a Levitical priest and mom
being Judah, cousin of Mary of Judah. (I'm
digressing, but, I'm just saying...)

Oh, why when we look for Christ do we manage
to always admire him through our own religious
machinations? Why can't we lose ourselves
without losing him? I suppose because since he
has declared his passionate love for us, he sees
us when we see him. Maybe it's not bad to see
ourselves in the light of Christ's love. Maybe
we are meant to love ourselves as we love him
because only then can we love one another.

Yet, I want to do the right thing and not get
caught up in my own ego for that is how Solomon
got snared. Please Lord, help me escape from me.

So, today, first day of the week aka Sunday,
I begin again. Like Christ rose from the dead,
I live for the day when I will live in his presence
without sin. I long for the day when my mind
doesn't strain to understand, but, like a veil
lifting, I will suddenly understand the language
and multitudes of layered meaning, not just
in literature of the soul, like Song of Solomon,
but, in understanding the construction of a
single petal of a single rose.

There's a theory of everything, and it rests with
God and it is God. When we are fed with his
flesh and drink his blood, we have sustenance
to survive like physically recharging and consuming
protein, carbs and fats, vitamins and minerals of
food and drink.

I don't want to eat slain flesh anymore, but, I'm
not at liberty to give it up. I need the complex amino
acid, vitamin and lipid replenishments because of
my bleeding blood. When I am transformed, however,
like everyone else, I will no longer consume flesh of
animals or drink anything but the pure water of life,
as he has presented to us in a promised visionary
plan of redemption. Then will my eyes behold the
majesty of his beauty in a way which will not destroy
me. My retinas couldn't take him otherwise. That's what
destroyed Paul's eyesight! I will love seeing him of
course, but, most desired in my mortal frame of
reference right now is how animals will be free.
The lion and lamb will be friends, as he said, lying
side by side. The small child will play with the
poisonous asp and not be bitten. Nothing will
hurt or destroy anymore.

Only then will there be peace.

I have abandoned my disappointment over Hillary
losing. I have given to God my fear of Obama being
the antichrist, even though I have some real concerns
that he is part of the prophetic horror story ahead.
I only have eyes for what is edifying to my heart
and soul, the love of Jesus Christ and the real hope
and signs that he is returning.


I charge you, O ye daughters of Jerusalem,
by the roes, and by the hinds of the field,
that ye stir not up, nor awake [my] love, till he please.

Sgs 5:8 I charge you, O daughters of Jerusalem,
if ye find my beloved, that ye tell him, that I
[am] sick of love.

I feel like I have thousands of fellow brethren who
are also besotted by love of Christ. Even though there
are millions who profess his name, who will be willing
to abandon their hope of this world and sociopolitical
secular Israel for the Zion coming from above?

I wanted to vote for a Democrat before I died, but,
I can't vote anymore. I just don't care. They don't
give us any choices anymore. It's like food when
food is McDonald and Wendys. It's all part of an
inferior food chain which draws from suffering,
slaughter, slavery and oppression of this world.
It's all over for me. I don't seek to change the world
other than to pray for Christ to return rapidly.
There is no heaven on Earth until his feet again
touch Jerusalem and he stands upon the Mount
of Olives again. Until then, there is only idolatry,
demonic world conspiracy, greed, horror, horror,
horror... when will it end so we can begin?

2012? I think so, at the latest. I pray it is sooner.
If it is in another 100 years, it won't change a
thing for me. In an instant we are born and die.
In a blink of an eye, we stand before God and
are judged and condemned or transformed and
accepted amongst the angels. If we are to judge
the angels, how glorious is his blueprint for
man. No wonder Lucifer trembles and quakes.
Like the transient morning star is obliterated
by the light of the sun's rise in the sky, so will
the coming of God be on the day we are waiting
to see after this long dark age of night.

Come quickly Lord, dear Jesus. Our precious
love is hidden within your wings. COver us
with your feathers and grace. Take us out
of this place and let our soul's transformation
begin.